october 21, 2025

(yes, ik this is public.)

dear diary,

one positive, i made a new friend !!!! :P and this week has definitely started out better than the last one did. i also bleached my hair. i love being silly and blonde. ANDDDDD i got my halloween costume. i literally can't wait to wear it. i also just can't wait to see my hometown friends.

my college experience has been rough dude. i haven't slept much and i really mean that. i'm maybe getting 15 hours of sleep each week. really takes a toll on the body. i'm glad i'm a tiny bit sleepy tonight. but it is already 12:30am. 

i'm really struggling with my purpose. i keep asking the question, why am i here!!!! i'm not suicidal, sometimes i'm just like i really don't get why i'm on earth. obvi there's gotta be some reason. but i wish i knew the reason. i guess when you're constantly awake and by yourself so much, you start to ask stupid questions. 

enjoy the MCR in the background. they've been my band of choice today. i feel like a pre teen again. i can't wait to see them in may. i think it'll help heal my inner child LOL.

i'm just going on a tangent now. sorry, i don't have much people to talk to HAHAHA.

anyways love you strangers,

letha ♡