How my disease affects my dream, and how I will overcome it.

so i never really tell anyone this, but i have a bone disease. i actively have to be aware at all times when im out and about and it really sucks because its just this lingering fear of possibly getting hurt. one persons normal fall to the ground is my worst experience. its been like that my whole life so im used to it.

but what really sucks is not being able to do what i love (physically). for example i have been really into skateboarding for as long as i could remember. i remember being 4 years old in the front yard and my neighbor who was like 12 came riding up to me with his board and he sat me on top of it and pushed me around. ever since then i just really wanted to be able to skate.

there was a period of time where i did skate every day (i couldn't learn tricks or else i'd risk injury) but i did what i could. i would ride down long cement hills that lead into tunnels. i honestly have no idea why my mom let me do that haha. i took more risk with myself in my early teen years. but now im 21 and i could never do that.

now i just watch skate videos and play the game and use a finger board. i am heavily into skate culture as a whole. i always will be. it really inspires me down to the way i dress. im thinking about becoming a videographer for people who skate. i want to be apart of the skate scene somehow even if i cant ride. maybe make a brand for skaters to wear. 

I will just intergrade my current hobbies into it. since skating is a very artistic activity. fashion, photography, and music all play into it. so many creative aspects to skating. that’s what i adore about it. it has everything that i love. everything that makes me ME.

if reincarnation exists, i really hope in my next life i can be born healthy and strong enough to be a pro skater. that has always been one of my favorite dreams. to the point where i actually dream about it. i had a dream two nights ago that i was doing a kickflip