talking about my fav artist !!

I think my fav artist of all times would be cavetown (i love him tbh). I discovered them back in 2022 when i was still 13, he has been a huge part of my teen years even now that i'm 16 (almost 17) :)

I remember i discovered his music going through youtube one random day like in may of that year, a lyric video of a song of theirs called "thank you" if i remember well. i don't think that video is in yt anymore but damn whoever the person that made that video is, you have changed the course of my life fr

Something that i have to admit is that i used to be lgbtphobic at the time (not anymore tho, i've changed i swear), and it is a very well known fact that Robin is trans. When i found out i was surprised but i didn't like it, so my logic for some dumb reason was like "well i'm going to listen to his songs from when he still had a high-pitched voice" (IT WAS STUPID I KNOW I REGRET THAT) because the first song i've ever heard from them was when they still had that high-pitched voice (i'm cringing rn remembering that omfg)

At some point (like june/july 2022?) i suddenly gained consciousness and i thought "i like some of his songs, why his identity would stop me from listening to his other albums?". I fell in love with their music. I started downloading their songs in my phone (i hated spotify bc i couldn't afford premium) and i listened to his music almost everyday. Around the same time i learned that being lgbtphobic was stupid (made me an ally lol)

Just to clarify i had a lot of internalized homophobia at the time bc back in 2020 i liked a girl, came out to some of my friends as bi and became a trans ally (even though i didn't understand how being trans was i still supported them); i didn't tell my parents bc i knew they would hate that and they would be disappointed in me (mind you i was 11). They found out and well, i went back to being a cishet homophobic christian girl bc of them.

Robin kinda gave me a safe space to realize it was okay to not be cishet, it didn't make me an awful and weird person that deserved hell for liking a girl (thank god to fall in love with a girl ft. bea for that); i also realized it was really dumb to reject someone just bc of their sexuality/identity bc of the "if he's an incredible and kind person, and also has a lot of great songs, why would i not like him just bc he isn't cis?" logic (OPENED MY DAMN EYES FOR THE SECOND TIME). I learned a lot about the lgbtq community at the time, and started discovering my identity and sexuality too :)

I remember being in the live premiere of 1994, also when worm food came out (i was at school lol), that single album changed my life i swear; whenever robin released something, i was there. i wanted so hard to be in caveclub but couldn't pay for it bc i didn't have my own money (i was so sad when caveclub closed) :(

I still have memorized almost all of his songs except of the most new ones, he kinda became my special interest for like two years. When i turned 14 i put boys will be bugs at 12:00am the night of my birthday in the "i just turned 14, and i think this year i'm gonna be mean" :p

2023 came, the worst fucking year of my life. I was a 14 year old who identified as a trans guy at the time (now i'm gnc, idk wth am i anymore) with a lot of self-hatred and unresolved issues. cavetown became my source of comfort, i related to a lot of his songs. Some would make me feel calm, others made me feel understood. He was my top artist that year lol

In 2024 i realized i wasn't a trans guy (kinda, my mom found out and i gave up trying), i was in a better place mentally but i was still a huuuge fan. he was my top artist that year too. I think he was my top artist in 2022 too but i didn't see my spotify wrapped that year, my top 5 songs in the playlist are all from him; so it's (probably) been 3 years having him as the nº1 most listened artist :D

This year i stopped listening to his music for a while, bc it brought me a lot of bad memories. Now i've been listening to their songs again, just not a few songs (like sharpener, this is home/home, dear, just add water, empty bed and ur gonna wish u believed me) who have lyrics that i related a lot to when i was in my worst moment and they contain bad memories. feb 14, frog and lov song were in that list too until like second half of last year bc i got rejected on st. valentine's day in 2023 lmaoooo

Hopefully someday i'll go to a concert of theirs and shout out loud his lyrics from the bottom of my heart, and meet them. That guy has single-handedly changed the course of my teen years, and without him i'd probably not be here anymore tbh. I hope from the bottom of my heart he doesn't become problematic bc i'd be devastated; ik he was cancelled in 2020 for some edgy tweets he made when he was a dumb teen but i whole-heartedly believe he has changed ever since, he apologized and he's a grown 26 year old man now lol

live laugh love cavetown ig !!