SCHOOL IS MENTALLY DRAINING

I CAN'T KEEP UP

School drains me mentally in ways that are hard to explain. Every day feels like a marathon—trying to keep up with lessons, assignments, and expectations while juggling my own thoughts and emotions. It’s not just the academics; it’s the pressure to stay focused, to socialize, to pretend I’m okay even when I’m overwhelmed. Sometimes I feel like I’m just going through the motions, and even then, it never feels like enough.

What hurts most is when my parents see this exhaustion as laziness. They don’t always understand how heavy everything feels. When I’m too tired to study or when my grades slip, they assume I’m not trying hard enough. But the truth is, I’m trying so hard it hurts. I wish they could see that behind the silence or the closed bedroom door is someone who’s mentally worn out, not someone who’s giving up.

The pressure to get good grades and make everyone proud is like a weight I carry all the time. I want to succeed—not just for myself, but to prove I’m worth something to the people who believe in me. But that pressure can be suffocating. I’m scared of failing, scared of disappointing others, and scared that if I don’t live up to expectations, I’ll lose the love and respect I’ve worked so hard to earn.