Menstruation sucks ass and I hate it

I am a lesbian. I don't need this. I am in so much genuine pain that I can't move. Life is utterly misery everytime I'm on it.

I was put on birth control a month ago and it didn't help. I'm bedridden, nauseated and can't stand without collapsing. The only breath of fresh air I get is when I'm laying in a boiling hot shower, and even then my legs still hurt.

I genuinely don't know what to do, I hate being a woman so fucking much. I hate the fact men just, don't have this? Like, how does it feel not living in pain for a week? Is it sooo nice? Are you just sooo glad you don't have to deal with this.

I hate my body.