little personal update (TW)

TW // EATING DISORDERS!!!!

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so i have been sick these past 3 days (just a mild cold) but i feel nauseous every night since my binge eating has been so fucking awful, i am currently laying in bed, bloated and just sick since i had been eating too much.

i feel like a huge pig, i am fat and i just wanna be locked in a basement to be starved, i am ugly.

asides from that, i haven't left my room in 2 or 3 months. i hate it. i wanna be outside but the thought of going outside makes me wanna vomit. i am in a constant state of anxiety and just stay on the internet because it used to be comforting. but now its just making me more depressed.

nothing feels real anymore and everyone is just an asshole, you get bullied for everything, you legit can't have hobbies anymore or whatever. it's all "be yourself!!!" or "cringe culture is dead!!" but when i talk about things that interest me- all of a sudden i get bullied by some nihilistic moron who probably snorts adhd meds in the morning and thinks insulting someone in a serious tone is just a "joke".

so honestly i'd just rather rot in bed and not form any social connections.

so yeah thanks for listening to my cringy emo vent 

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