sometimes i wish i was a genderless thing

i dont want to be male or female, i dont want these stupid parts, i dpnt even want to be referred to by pronouns or seen as human. often i daydream that im just this big ball of plasma in space floating around and interacting with other big balls of plasma and nobody gives a fuck about what gender you are or what pronouns to use for you. i hate the idea and probablhy truth that what i do and my behavior is influenced by what i was born as and that all i do will be related to my fucking "fembrain" or "estrogen" i dont like that i have horomones and that they do shit that makes me moody or think differently. i hate it ihate it ihate it ihate it 

when i say gender i mean more biological sex which i know is kinda miseleading with the titlei think genders and stuff r cool if ur into that but i really, honest to god, do not want any of this shit. i like being a boy sometimes but at the end of the day it just all feels like aesthetics to me. stuff some guy made up 500 years ago that now everybody decides to follow. idk guys