warning? idk.

I hate myself. I wanna rip my body apart. I don't wanna look at myself again. I hate being me. I hate it. I am in hatred, and disgust in myself, my body, my soul, my personality, my past. I hate every second of having a "model" body. I hate being sexualized. It feels like my fault. I wanna be non-existent. I hate being a girl. I hate being a human. I hate having a uterus. I hate being me. I wanna rip every scab, bruise, scar, and feminine feature off of me painfully, screaming so everyone knows how it feels to be like this. I drink myself to nonconcious with liquor. I smoke my problems away. I eat myself away, picking scabs, giving myself bruises, sexualizing myself so I feel better but then vomit after. It fucking sucks. but feels so good.