play pretend

Tonight, it's just us two.
" You're the one in front of me not the puppet. No you're here. This is your hands... " Nulla said it like a mantra. A desperate attempt to mask this hopeless situation with something sweet.
You take his left hand to your cheek and kissed his palm. Relishing in his touch. Caressing and nuzzling in it.
You're just as bound to him like he is with you.
" Nulla... sleep with me here. Rest. I want to hug you, make you my pillow as I close my eyes. " you said in a whisper. He was about to speak when you kissed him.
A chaste peck at the lips turned into something deep. Passionate. You returned his kiss with the same agony and yearning like his.
" Can you feel this? " He puts your hand to his chest. 
Staring at his eyes you can see the pain and fatigue he's carrying from who knows how many years that is.
" Nulla I don't wanna talk right now. I'm afraid my heart can no longer take this anymore. I care for you so much that this burden you're carrying pains me too. I want to help you. I'll do anything you want. " You kissed him again, your hands roam his body like you're running out of time. 
You straddle him and said " I want to eat you... " Nulla stared at you, mouth agape and eyes wide.
You kissed him again. This time with more force. Teeth clashing, tongue dancing for dominance.

" Nulla... Can i ask you for something? " You hugged him from behind as he was washing the dishes.

He puts the plate down in his hand, dries his hand on the apron and turns to you. " Mi vida, what do you want from me? I'll give it to you in an instant. " He says with a grin as he wraps his one hand at your waist, his other resting at the top of your head patting it.

" Well, what do you think is the most romantic thing someone can do for you? " You put some space between you too, not too close but not too far. Just enough. You reached for his right hand situated at your waist and putting it to your cheek. Nuzzling it and giving it a quick pecks.

" It's when you look at me. When you're giving me your full undivided attention and helping me with my goal. It's very romantic how you give yourself to me. " He smiled at his words.

" It's really romantic when someone gives themselves to you right? " You looked up at him, looking for his shared sentiment at your words. He nods.

" Mi cielito, do you mind if i..." Purposely trailing off, Nulla looks at you with a curios look. Brows furrowed and eyes searching yours for answers.

" Carino where are you going with this hmm? You can ask me anything. Don't be shy~ " Nulla smirks

His thumb caresses your cheek. You put it to your lips and give it a lick. " I think it's so romantic when someone gives themselves to you completely. Mind... " You say, eyes fixated on his. Nulla exhales slowly. Chest heaving up and down cautiously. " Body... " You continue, while giving a wet kiss on the back of his hand " and soul... right amor? " He just lets out a breathy chuckle " Carino you're killing me right now. " 

" Nulla can I eat a piece of you? " You said in a whisper. His body paused at your words, you're pretty sure his breath got caught up together with his mind at this request. Still looking at him not blinking, you proceed to give his hand some light bites. Each one increasingly harder than the last as it goes up to his arms... Until you get in his shoulders.

You neared his ears in a slow, calculating way. Making sure you breath just right so he can feel it in his neck. " Nulla, you told me you can give me anything right? " you faced him, your hands leaving his to rest it in his chest. " Just a little piece carino. I want a piece of you inside me. It will really make me happy. "