being mean is cool, actually.

sumn from my notes app that I wrote when I was sleepy. Read it back to a couple of my friends when they were telling me about some assholes they were dealing with and they both told me to post it somewhere, so.

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If you're trying to develop a sense of 
confidence or refine your self-esteem 
some more, 
Try to keep in mind:
That someone being delibrately mean 
Is waaaaaay weirder (derogatory) 
Than just being a little strange. 

And in case you're a little confused on 
what someone being "mean" looks or 
sounds like, basically, it's someone 
metaphorically, or literally, shitting on 
somebody.

Like. If you get the sense that someone 
had positioned themselves above you, to 
shit upon you, I need you to consider 
the possibility that that is SO MUCH 
WEIRDER (!) than being super intense about 
how much you love Scooby Doo o 
Chappell Roan.

Sooooooo much weirder than: 
Having a lisp
Or liking to wear a lot of red
Or having a shitty anime art style 
Or spouting off random fun facts every 
chance you get.

Like.

I know someone being mean can be really 
disarming, especially cus people LOVE to 
be mean in a way that shrouds them in 
plausible deniability, but just think about 
it.

Think about how it's actually quite 
undignifying to spread ass and shoot forth 
your bad vibes and spiritual dysentary all 
over someone because you think it's 
funny (?) or appropriate.

(Like. Believe it or not, there are nice 
respectful ways to rib on someone or tell 
them they need to do better, and sometimes 
it can be REALLY hard to discern  
between someone tryna be nice or jokey 
about a sensitive topic for you, and 
someone being mean.

Like. When enough people are mean to you 
often enough, sometimes wires get 
crossed. And it's important to unravel that 
cable spaghetti nonsense, cus if you don't, 
YOU can and will end up being mean to 
people who don't deserve it.)

It's actually really pathetic.

And yes, duh, being shat on is awful and 
embarrassing, but unless there's a VERY 
specific set of circumstances beforehand... 
that wasn't your fault?

And I know I can say all this as an adult, 
who's made it through the crucible of a 
conventional education system -deep 
breath-

But the sooner you find out and internalise 
that being a bully is infinitely more absurd 
and nonsensical than being a little freak 
who's just trying to enjoy themselves?

The sooner you'll stop blaming yourself
and being ashamed for having the 
aUdAcItY to just be yourself.

So.

From now on, if anyone comes up to you 
an drops a completely unsolicited turd on 
your new Sketchers, (or you realise that 
someone has been using you for target 
practice)

Look at them with disgust.

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Anyway. That's my 7th grade reading level roast on assholes. Like comment and subscribe for more stream of consciousness rants.