Groggy Friend Hangout Feelings

I don't know why, but I oftentimes get annoyed thinking about seeing my friends. It's not that they're rude or frustrating or anything, it's just that I feel bothered by realizing I have to interact again. I mean, I do have fun when I'm talking with them, but the experience of that realization post and pre is unpleasant.

I have the feeling that this partially has to do with the acting part of socializing. It takes a lot of energy and effort for me to act the way I "want to", like being friendly, caring and funny. And I will say, I'm not really funny, so it's probably just me being a try-hard the whole time. Either way, it's taxing. And even the groggy feeling after is frustrating :(

I like being alone a lot at home doing my own thing. My dad doesn't call me a hermit for no reason.  

Have a nice day/night :]