feeeeeeel

so/// im not enter to spacehey pretty often, but when i go here i feel horrendous* i don't feel alive anymore but^^

i don't drink that much like 1-2 years ago, i don't even smoke sum cigarettes when im sober. i don't want to let myself to go again in this condition i was. i don't know what to do

so i have the BEST bf ever, i don't do shizoposting like a year ago (i litteraly don't remember anything). 

i hope i an be better

i hope i can be sober

i hope i can be happy

i hope i won't be able to feel like this anymore

i hope i won't feel anything