struggling with depression :(

So this year has been absolute BUNS. My boyfriend of almost 3 years blindsided me with a breakup, I got sick with severe anemia, have had stomach issues, one of my good friends suddenly blocked me, and now I've had to give up my dream career path because of needing medical insurance by 26. 

As a result of this, now I'm fucking depressed and hate my life. Some of my suicidal thoughts have come back again on and off and it's not a good feeling to have. I feel numb, empty, and like a shell of who I am these days. I'm even struggling to shower at least twice a week...I don't even want to try with anything anymore because it feels pointless if it's going to turn to shit anyways.

On the bright side, my best friend has moved to my town so we are hanging out lately which has helped my mood. I'm also going to be a scene queen for Halloween and going to a punk concert with my friend which I'm really looking forward to!

I'm sincerely hoping this depression will someday magically go away because I'm already on meds, am in therapy and have worked on eating more vegetables.

I'll try to remember to post my costume, but likely I won't on my own. Maybe I'll set a reminder for myself to do so because I forget about this website existing..

Anyways, bye! x3