I hate my addiction

I have a serious food addiction and it’s ruining my life. I am getting better but i still have a long way to go. I wish i could be normal and not think about my body 24/7. Ppl don’t take my addiction seriously cuz im skinny(as if bulimia doesn’t exist). I cannot imagine a future where i am fully recovered. I don’t think im strong enough. I just get addicted to everything. I once ruined my situationship because instead of responding to that girls messages i played stardewvalley for two days straight without leaving my room. Bruh what is wrong with me 💀 

The Korean SAT(su neung) is in a month and i still can’t focus on studying, even though i know that this will be the most important test in my life. Sorry for venting. I don’t know where to talk about ts cuz nobody takes me seriously. Any tips on how to focus on studying without eating so goddamn much?