i hate myself tw

i am so chronically online yet so bored all the time my life is boring im being homeschooled the only friends i have are online friends i troll people online by pretending to be an age player i have fucked up ocd intrusive thoughts i skip my shower days bc i dont have energy i rarely brush my hair i flirt too much w random people online i do stupid shit all the time no wonder ive been grroomed no wonder nobody irl likes me no fucking wonder. so close to ending this shit its not even funny anymore