life update - october 2025 /ᐠ - ˕ -マ

so i just decided to blog from time to time because it sounds fun (>؂ •́)

i finally got a job! it's been a while actually since i got it, and honestly it's pretty good for a first job. my boss is nice and my coworkers are cool, i'm not gonna lie and say it was easy to adapt, i made a lot of mistakes and almost got fired a few times lol but i'm doing fine now. i'm growing to be a lot more confident in myself and my capabilities.

i feel like i'm slowly growing to be my true self in every way and this is probably the most confident i've ever been. i'm developing my own style and personality after so many years of bedrotting and drawning in depression and anxiety. of course, i have many things to deal with when it comes to myself. 

for example, i'm questioning my gender identity again. i don't know if i'm non binary or a gender non conforming woman. i enjoy being androgynous, use all pronouns and i will eventually get a mastectomy because having boobs makes me really uncomfortable. but i know there are cis women who do all that, and the idea of being a woman doesn't bother me if i can get all the things i mentioned. i'm still figuring that out. 

anyway, i'm working hard, but i want to find time for my hobbies again now that i recovered from my depression. i want to begin writing fanfics again lol i had so much fun doing it. i also want to get into dancing, it's been a few years since i last got into dancing and i'm really rusty. 

i think that's it. thx for reading ≽^˃⩊˂^≼ 

p.s.. song recommendation: algorism - babymetal