i feel like i never was alive at all

i know i’m young, and the statement is technically true in a way that is completely normal and expected. i’m in college, and it feels like i have just started being aware of being alive and being a separate person from my family. it’s like i existed as a concept, as an idea of what i should be and what i was born to be my entire life, and now that im away i started to realise i am a human being all on my own. its good, i like it, but its also crushing me a little

i am thankful to have the strength to be born again and build who i am all over