This theatre kid kinda intimidates me! (I'm confused)

I haven't really told anyone about it, but there's this one fella in my theatre class who is EXTREMELY passionate in that form of art. He's firm and from what I've seen he only talks to specific people when it doesn't involve work. I don't know if I'm freaking the hell out because he looks like the secret lovechild of my older step sister and the guy I had a silent weird situationship with (divinely embarrassed with that ordeal) ANYWAYS it's freaky! And I don't really know how to deal with it except just do nothing about it at all. I can't tell if I have an attraction toward to the guy because of his resemblance to people I used to "love" or if I just wanna be his friend because he's emotionally guarded and I wanna figure him out. UGHH he gives MAJOR cat vibes! He's a bit intimidating, but I admire his work ethic. People do describe him as "cocky" and I could see what they're referring to. He is surely not afraid to call someone out, and from what I witnessed, he doesn't take half apologies or apologized himself (like bumping into him and the other saying "sorry", he'll remain silent.) I think, maybe, I kind of see it like a game — like I'm documenting his reactions and seeing what makes him tick. He is very hardcore about theatre, and probably wants a control handle on everything. I have seen a more intriguing side recently. During 24 hour Playfest, he wrote a play about quarantine during COVID and these silly teenagers conjured up a loser lacrosse player ghost. He has a sense of humor, and I assume that there is a side to him that is soft, but he seems as though he will not give out easily. I respect that.

NO I DO NOT WANT TO INTERACT WITH HIM WITHOUT AN ABSOLUTE REASON LOWKEY. It'd be nice, but from what I've seen I don't think he'd like the kind of person I am in public. I don't believe he's a fan of small talk or people seeking validation. I used to be a suck up at my last school, and of course I'm not telling ANYONE about that. Maybe he notices my desire to be friends with everyone? I am relatively new there, and everyone else has a head start with building a relationship with one another. I think I would want to be more like him: more firm and resolute. Also, it's really freaking me out because the fella I had a "situationship" with was this whimsical theatre kid with long wavy hair AND THIS GUY'S RESEMBLANCE TO HIM PHYSICALLY IS A BIT UNCANNY because the two of them are NOTHING like each other in terms of personality! It's kind of disorienting y'know?

His firmness also kinda reminds me of my older step sister and almost like he's related to her physically somehow. She isn't here anymore and I don't talk to her, so maybe it's only frosting on the "you used to be in my life" cake :sob:

 His intimidation reminds me of my dad too! I love my dad. He's very resolute and hard-working. Maybe I'm drawn to that? I think this kid is just a bundle of resemblance ;-;

BUT PHYSICALLY I THINK THE GUY IS MY TYPE IT'S SCARING ME. Then again, I'm not sure if it's any kind of attraction or if it's simply admiration.

AND HE'S SO GOOD AT ACTING ! Maybe I do wanna learn from him, but I'm afraid of his disapproval. I also want to show more people this play I'm writing, but if I'm looking for people who would be genuinely interested in reading it then he might be the last person to go to.

This is sounding less like an evaluation and more like those corny dramas. :sob: GET OUT BRO.