10/13/25

10/13/25

hhiiiii today school was alright other than i have been reeeaalllyyy nauseaous How the fuck do you spell that. all day because i took my meds on an empty stomach and it made me really sick ........ today i talked with my counselor about the trade school i want to go to , and we figured out that if i  do 3 online classes this year, i'll have enough of my credits to be able to apply for that course to do instead of coming to school senior year!!! it was really cool to find out and i was really excited, but now im realizing how much fuckin work i gotta do....im scared.......and regretting talking about it even though i really shouldnt because this is the best option for me...........im already so burnt out and its only october. i have 6 months to take 1 year-long worth of work class online and 2 half-year classes online. its a lot. along with learning to drive and keeping my grades up, im scared i will fail miserably. i get really anxious and shaky thinking about it so im gonna stop now.  my fit was fire today i wore some of my new jeans and new shirt i got it was peak.....first time wearing jeans for an entire year, literally havent worn jeans since l;ast october . cray . my tummy hurts and im really anxuious i gotta go to bed

today is day 499 no shinjiro and 471 no makoto day 500 tomorrow..........