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wen i was walking home from school i realised theres no way out of my body image shit and ill probs kms in a couple of years cus of the feeling getting worse and even if i did lose weight i would probs end up starving myself to death so theres basically a time limit on my life now which makes everything even worse
i wish i hadnt fallen down into this cus theres no way out now i feel so lost i just want to be skinny thats all i want
it makes me feel so trapped i hate being like this i want to starve myself till im skinny and happy w my body but then if i eat healthy again ill gain it all back and go in this cycle of comfyness quickly turning into guilt and then i would probs end up commiting sucide by the end idk
but at the same time i dont want to die i dont want to leave this world cus i love ppl i dont want to go and not be w them anymore thats like the only reason im still happy is cus of my friends and this website
thats all
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XxNouraNostalgiaxX
u can get help yk...theres therapy..theres ppl who care abt u n all, if u got a will, u can do this <3 so if u got a will 2stay healthy and not starve, u can.
Vivi Woof
I'm so sorry you've gotten trap in the cycle. I haven't really dealt with an ed but I have had problems with sh. I promise you it gets better. I wish I had more straightforward advice but I don't. I think going to a mental health institution or something like that for a week or two will help. It snapped me out of it. I'll be praying for you.<3
Elle <3
As someone who has been here and gotten better, I promise it is worth recovering & using healthy methods & expectations.