DDLC's characters and more about their similarities and differences to me

hi, i'm lolv66 and i'm making this late at night since and bored + i wanted to write a bit about myself and i thought this would be fun to do ~ ! so tonight i'll be comparing myself to all the ddlc (doki doki literature club) characters with kinnie bingos (made by @strawberry on pinterest) for something interesting and entertaining to do for myself and maybe even you to! (Just a warning, the content below contains spoilers for ddlc so i recommend watching gameplay or playing the game before reading this! 

1. Monika 

Monika is the main member/leader of the DDLC club , she is very intelligent and kind, (or some people would say used to be) ; i personally believe she cares for DDLC and her friends/the members as at the very end of the game she trys to delete herself and revive the other members as she soon was lead to believe she were the problem the entire time (although some believe that what she did was plainly for MC's happiness), which also failed since sayori became self-aware and monika deletes the entire game ; stating that there is no happiness found in DDLC.

- the bingo and her relation to me -

I don't really relate to monika as much as I do to the other members, I even will say that I relate to her the least, but that doesn't meant that I don't share some of her characteristics, such as:

- her love for the other members

- her love for MC / Reality

- her motivation for her and MC to be together with it being just them

- her jealousy of the other girls being a romance option whilst she isn't 

in the beginning of last year, i fell in love with my ex best friend, it was the first time i'd ever felt anything like that before, so i was very excited and for the very first time, i felt like i was living in 'reality'. I fantasise and daydream ( I may be a maladaptive daydreamer ) a lot, it takes up so much of my time because its like living in a perfect world away from everything that's happening in this real world, but , this fake world breaks often breaks because every once in a while you wake up and realise that there is nothing going on in your real life to be excited or extremely happy about or you have no friends or you're made fun of or you're ugly , ifyk what I mean, its just boring and tiring. she made me feel that when i woke up every once in a while, i had something to be excited and happy about i just loved her that much that every moment with her was bliss ~ 🌸  i think this is similar to what monika feels at the start because she gains self-consciousness when she is fascinated by Reality , and she was sick of living in a fake world. But this changes in the end when she sabotages the other girls in hope of gaining the love of MC, but MC ends up deleting her, which in the end ends up with the entire literature club being deleted. I relate to the ending heavily because she ended up breaking things off with me due my own actions, and as upset and heartbroken it was to then watch her participate in the same activities and do the same things with other people that she used to do with me (relating to monika not being a romantic option in ddlc, only yuri, natsuki and sayori) when in comparison she is so shallow and cold with me. ~ also if you are concerned for me please do not worry since I am doing a bit better now with new friends and support <3 I am trying my hardest to cope as I still do love her.. 

as a conclusion,  i think i kin monika a little more than i think i used to because whilst writing this i realised how much i do relate to her and her experiences with MC, the girls and Reality.

2. Sayori

sayori is a kind, compassionate girl who cares for others and tends to lift up other peoples spirits when low, although her herself is struggling with depression but she bundles up everything inside as she wants to give of a good impression . she cannot find a reason to get up in the morning which is why she is often late to school, she also feels as she does not deserve to be loved. near the end of the game, 

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