this site as escapism and what the serverblight has to do with everything

ive escaped the abyss that is doomscrolling only to find myself using setting up my FUCKING profile as the same exact thing!!! and i actually got things i wanna do!!!!!! like i could have spent those whats it now.. two DAMN hours of my life being productive instead of trying to make my little corner look good, while also taking frequent breaks to do nothing or watch the new serverblight.

intermission: now THAT was cool, it wasn't scary per say (mainly cause im tough as nails) but it was freaky and i adore the whole concept of it and the creepypasta feel of it all. this new episode was about a guy trapped by the serverblight in the spawn area, whilst it tries to lure him out with various baits (the last one was brutal.) it could have probably opened the spawn door whenever it wanted, but it chose to "invite" him out so to speak. i always find myself craving for more with serverblight... there is so much set up already and having to wait weeks to months between each episode is TORTURE GOSH. i hope aaron doesn't end up like the rest of them. anyways back to the show:

and i cant even consider it finished!!! i wanted to start recording one of my older songs, since its been sitting as a midi masterpiece for too long, but instead all i found out is that the acid pro daw SUCKS (luckily i pirated it, in spite of it looking like a russian virus) and how to set up reaper (which turns out is completely free, like you dont get updates after 2 months but like do i look like i care?) SO ALL I HAVE TO SHOW FOR TODAY IS THAT MY PROFILE MUSIC WORKS JIDGFJIDGFIJDFGIJDGFJO and now its 10 pm so the day is completely over even tho im not gonna be sleeping for another 5 hours.

i will find literally any excuse to not pursue the things my dreams or the things i love. i need a cookie.