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why the FUCK have i not been able to eat normally for the past like 4 days??? this shit used to happen to me sometimes when i was still using nicotine because i had little to no appetite and dropped almost 30 pounds because of it, but it hasn't happened since i've quit until now.
i'm just not hungry most of the time. i have to force myself to eat something when i wake up so i can take my meds without getting nauseous and throwing them back up, but sometimes just eating something small makes me nauseous. then i'll go most of the rest of the day without eating until i get hungry around like 9 or 10 pm, and when i get hungry around that time i get nauseous because i have barely eaten that day. i try to eat something then and i feel nauseous again.
the only time i can eat and not feel nauseous at this point is when i'm high and i have the munchies. i still have to eat smaller portions than i normally can even with the munchies, but at least i can fucking eat. i hate it because i can't just get high in the middle of the day bc i have shit to do, but it seems like the only way i can actually force my body to be okay with me eating. i also have no desire to only be able to eat food when i'm high, i want to be able to just eat whenever i want to without feeling like i'm gonna throw up. what the fuck is going on with me??? why is this happening???
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