been a while huh

been a while huh

well over two years since my last blog post. this place used to be really damn important to me back in college. like blogging on here really kept me sane it was such an incredible outlet for my stress and energy... lets just say ive had a really fucking turbulent past few years. worked a few jobs, made some new friends, lost some more, moved digital homes, and just all around grew the fuck up. last time i blogged here i was still a teenager and now im old enough to drink. its only two and a half years but that comparison drives home just how different i feel i guess.

i discovered quite a while ago that i am a fictive of dave strider but it turns out that was a lot more fucking complicated than i thought and also i found out im a girl for some reason lol. turns out all three of us were fictives and never knew it. cadence is kanaya, im dave, and ambie is one of our original characters. honestly me and kan are unbelievably fucking obvious in hindsight, go read our old blog posts its so fucking funny that we didnt know lol. theres even two more of us also and i might let them introduce themselves later if one of them promises not to be a cunt about it and i actually remember to keep using spacehey.

i think i feel drawn to come back to spacehey because i remember the comfort it brought me during one of the most stressful and depressing periods of my life (college) and i happen to be stuck in the new reigning champion of that with the job im working right now. some time in the next 24 hours im going to have to find the courage to text my boss that im quitting... my usual go-to people to talk to are all busy or asleep and ive been finding myself only getting even more stressed out every time i open any of the contemporary social medias i use and the thought of how nice spacehey made me feel all those years ago came back to me again.

ive thought about and checked on spacehey a few times over the past two years but never enough to motivate myself to really focus on it. "ive got all these new friends that are so interesting and fun to talk to who needs a blog!" yeah turns out theres still something different about really talking to yourself for a while.

i honestly doubt there is a single person on my friends list that actually still uses this site but if anyone is here feel free to comment. ill probably be purging my friends list of people who havent logged on in over 2 years. hope ill see you all (even if thats just myself) more soon.