should i be more open minded

idk everyone says im too defensive and i love to argue and i throw people under the bus and stuff but its cuz i just don't like feeling like my opinion doesn't matter and i should just shut up and die which is how it feels at a point.

i do feel like im too argumentative sometimes but i dont like arguing i dont like debate i don't i hate it i just sometimes can't take peoples opinions. like i literally can't. sometimes what people say are 'opinions' just sounds like they're saying they hate other people and people that do these things they disapprove of should die n i can't stand that. but im worried i do that with opinions that aren't that too but like i can't handle it.

n i don't like when people say bad things about me either even just criticism makes me lose literally all hope in life like even just one bit of criticism makes me depressed, n getting a LOT of criticism makes me genuinely suicidal. n i feel like im too dramatic which i obviously am but i cant control it. idk what to do about it.

how are people just ok with opinions they disagree with. like when it's just taste sometimes it lowk annoys me but i can deal with that right. how are people ok with opinions that oppose their entire principles. like how do people just deal with people that say shit like "i think this specific kind of people are all evil and should die" or "everyone like this does this" how do people just say "eh agree to disagree" and move on. i cannot do that.

i feel like all ive been doing recently is cry idk whats wrong with me my eyes hurt really bad