a little peak into my journey adopting buddhist teachings

Well to start this off since i was fairly young, the interpretations of Buddhism were always so interesting. As i got older i found that i had forgotten my previous interest until Physics came into my life and awoken a passion. See for me that kind of thing doesn't last usually its a hyper fixation that i hyper focus on until i get bored or it no longer interest, but physics was different it was as if the more i learned and answered, the greater the magnitude of questions grew. It was like a never ending puzzle, a puzzle so many before us took turns trying to solve, and so many today taking up the mantle to contribute to the collective growth of our species.

but even in those questions, there were questions no one even thought to ask.

 I always wondered why physics had such a grasp on me, until i realized that it was my curiosity that would let go of physics. See with every little piece of knowledge i learned the more curious i became with that the deeper my thirst for even deeper truths, like the evolution of species, then the primordial soup in which life was born, followed by the formation of planets, all the way to what makes our reality in the 3rd Dimension tick, what's the force, law, or constant dictating the flow of time. 

Then i found a book, it was called the Four Promises: Be impeccable with your word, Don't take anything personally, Don't make assumptions, and Always do your best

This led me, with the help of a older mentor to My Ego, at first the idea of the ego puzzled me and i often thought i figured it, just to find out i was wrong. Then Secular Buddhism came into my life or maybe i was passively looking for it, but for what i know it changed and altered my understand.

I began to find my way to understanding interconnectedness and the concept of oneness, i began to separate the mind from the body, and began my path as the observer of my mind, rather then letting my mind dictate my feelings and create stories based off my one perspective. I turned my curiosity outward, dropped the curtain that says " I am me, and you are you", and allowing for compassion, understanding, and true human connection.

I know my journey is long, but i am grateful for every step i took, and every step i will take. I began to stop trying to force my world view onto everything, and allowed it all to be free to be itself. I allowed myself to feel the emotions that confused me without getting caught in the story, i found myself doubting my assumptions, while also taking the time to ask questions instead. I don't want the impression to be i mastered it, or i have a complete understanding, because in truth even I'm ignorant to some truths, and my biases, or single stories often take hold, but I'm learning how to accept reality for what it is and understand that my perspective is just that, my perspective. Only a singular view on a infinite sided picture. 

I don't know where i will end up, and i couldn't have felt more liberated.