is this the end

12 yrs of always together 12 years of being a team 12 years of the same person day in and day out. is this what love is like i know its not all rainbows and butterfly's but I was hopping it would be more. is it me ? do i just not show people the way I want to be treated want to be loved am I not giving my all and giving even what I don't have do I not say enough do I say to much? can he see what he's doing to me or does he only see what I project? is it a lost cause ? am I feeding something that's already dead? 12 years...