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when you walk into a room do you have an itchiness
an itchiness
an itchiness
you can't scratch what you can't pin down
when you walk into a room is there a disconnect? a glass wall
is there a man with a bottle of windex, or is it a mallet? is there either? can you feel anyone coming at all>?
a thickness following you , a silence
followed again by another person, welcomed loudly into the space do you feel it? when you speak do you feel it?
DO YOU FEEL THE ITCH?
when you walk into a room?
your hat your flannel the light your attention attention your attention
it finds me when i clean at work
no screens no conversation
just sweeping popcorn in a row
and i remember your light the flannel your attention
and i'm itchy itchy itchy
and there are small people in my silence swimming in the thick of an itchiness i can't place
burning in my chest when you say you're with a friend. are you friends in the same sense>,? same as me? when you walk into a room
do you feel it
can you feel my itchiness
itchiness
itchiness
can you drown in my indifference? would you do it as a favor?
when i walk into a room can you feel your pity as strongly as i do
will somebody look with intention
or should i grab the mallet myself?
itchy
itchy
itchy did you know
you can bite off your finger with the intensity of biting a carrot but your survival instincts prevent it
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soupferret
I feel it. The itch, the static hum under the skin when the air goes quiet and someone else’s noise takes up all the room. It’s like trying to swallow glass and pretend it’s water. I know the itch that doesn’t belong to the body- it’s psychic, parasitic, shaped like someone’s flannel or voice or stupid soft laugh that keeps echoing in the corners even when they’re gone.
The mallet image stays with me. I don’t know if I’d use it to break the glass or the silence or just my own reflection. You say “itchy” like a prayer, and maybe that’s what it is, scratching at god or attention or whatever phantom thing you think might see you. I think I get it. I think sometimes we all want to take a bite out of ourselves just to prove the body’s still real, that the itch means something, that the carrot-crunch pain might finally sound like relief.
I love this piece, it really tickles me pink1!! Your poetry is incredibly immersive ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´-
oh wow you get it. like reallyy get it! my eyes got a little watery reading your words because i think that even i sometimes have trouble interpreting the things my brain spews into the void, let alone with such tenderness and eloquence. i typed this up and threw it out into the digital graveyard expecting nobody to even come across it or understand, yet you've gutted my piece and lovingly put it all back together with a little bow. i love the term "spiritual itchiness," and your take on itchy as a prayer. you have put it wonderfully. you are a great analyst and i feel very seen by you, friend <3 thank you for caring about my wordvomit
by ♰༻salem༺♰; ; Report
I can definitely relate to what you said about not being able to decipher your own word vomit sometimes, like I desperately spew nonsense in the hopes of sounding somewhat profound or comprehensible.
This piece really resonates with me, and I'm looking forward to hopefully reading and discussing anything you might write in the future1!! ( ≧ᗜ≦)
It means so much to me that my words have reached you so deeply, I hope that we can become good friends1!!
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i've gone through some of your posts as well. you are such a beautiful writer! you had a line somewhere about how sponges are porous and made of absence. it touched me so deeply i read it aloud to my roommate. i think we are very similar and i think we would absolutely make good friends ^_^
by ♰༻salem༺♰; ; Report
I am so touched1!! I really cannot believe someone on here finds my writing noteworthy enough to read aloud- this makes me so happy1!! ♡(˃͈ ˂͈ )
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Sleep Deprived Nep
that happened to me the other day ngl, but also may i say That MAKEUUP THOUGH WOMEN much elegance much mystique such slay
we're so interlinked hehe thank u ^,..,^
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