Having OCD and how i have "escaped" it (TW: SH, Intrusive thoughts and selfcannibalism)

This post is for anyone how is interested in OCD or/and has OCD and would like to get support and mayby understanding to there mental illnese. REMEMBER i am not a therapist nor a doctor, this is only my own expiriense and does not reprisent all of OCD. Also there will be grammer mistakes as im not a native speaker, sorry :D.

I have had OCD my entire life. Ever since i was little i have had ceartin behaviors and thoughts that botherd me. Sadly my parents never really noticed and this is not because they didn´t pay attention to me in fact it was more because i masked my behaviors to the best of my ability. At a young age I noticed that there was something "wrong" with me and other kids did not do the things i did thus i tried keeping my rituals and behaviors at a minimum (if you have these do not do this, it is not smart and does not help you!). The anxiety grew as i tried not to do my behaviors resulting in sudden and unpredicted tantrums where all of my pent up thing burst out.

In my early teens my parents started noticing that somthing seemed to be not ok. I was slixing myself and eating my own skin. It was a "need" and if i didnt do it i would have extreame anxiety. I had so sevearly damaged my foot from ripping and eating the skin that i was walking with a limp everywhere i went. Finally i was brought to a psychologist where i let everything out. I told her about my expirienses and behaviors that i was unable to stop. She lisend and was very helpful and directed me to a therapist that was specilised in OCD and helping it.

Nowadays im quite well. I have medication to regulate my OCD and behavior replacement therapy has been a game changer. So if you are someone how is stuggling with these things, do not worr because help i out there!

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