moving houses

i finally moved into a house like a few days ago 

aauuuggghhh idk how to feel about it

on one hand it feels good to have a fresh start

on the other hand its not really a fresh start becaue i still have to deal with the same school :(

and also its really stressful moving all my stuff into this tiny ass room. i literally only have my pajamas in here rn and its been 3 days of me moving shit in here T__T

i really wish i could transfer but my mom said no cus the pressure this school keeps putting on me is literally becoming an UNGODLY amount of work. not even exararating ive never had a workload like this in my entire life...

eveything is kinda stressing me out a lot but i dont really feel it yet ifyk what i mean

i actually got bakeracted a week ago fr a couple days so that would make it my second time

the last time that happened i came home and felt different but this time i dont feel diffreent at all

i dont feel any relief or stillness or anything 

im worried im getting worse and idk how to help myself because i really am just helpless in this actual situtation rn..

idkkk ill get through it.. 

i have cool trinkets to distract me from the absolute anguish and despair of reality !!!