Ribbit Rants I

I have this subconscious habit when I say something even remotely funny or could be interpreted as such, like deadpan remarks or wry comments, I let out this scoff chuckle sound. It's short, in the throat, and a little annoying. Some people would mistake it as a hiccup (it's definitely not, mildly made fun of for it). I've been doing this since I was younger and I'm pretty sure it's something I got from the crowd laughing in the background of sitcoms. I SWEAR IT'S A CONDITION I CAN'T STOP IT. My mouth doesn't move or anything, it just happens, even when I scold myself for doing it. Apparently it's so funny I GOTTA DO IT AGAIN. I guess it also contributes to the fact that I do see nearly everything in some sort of comedic lens.

I COULD BE MAD AT SOMEONE, BE SARCASTIC/CYNICAL AND ALL YOU HEAR AFTER THE LINE IS OUT IS A GUTTURAL SLIGHT NOISE THAT SOUNDS LIKE A SCOFF AND A CHUCKLE HAD A CHILD AND STUFFED IT IN THE CLOSET(my chest).

LIKE, THAT SOUNDS CRINGEY TO ME WHEN I LISTEN TO MYSELF SPEAK

It's like

A ribbit. YEAH A RIBBIT I'M RIBBITING INVOLUNTARILY MID-CONVO IN NEARLY ANY OCCASION.

I'm also pretty expressive with my body when I speak. I make a breathless squeal/scream sound when someone "playfully" threatens me or when I'm "intimidated" (mostly in a comical and dramatic sense) and I gesture with my hands a lot and make facial expressions (unless I'm making flat comments or jokes). I guess the ribbit laugh is just one of the many conversative quirks I have or something.

I think I only express all of these quirks with those I'm very comfortable with, I'm not often pretty "engaged" with people, like not giving much reaction to them except for "yeah" (which is another issue, sometimes I say that after they finish a thought or mid-sentence and accidentally interrupt them. I don't mean to, I just want them to know I'm understanding and listening, but people still get annoyed) 

and things like "That sounds pretty cool" I do think that! I guess I sound bored or something because I say that a lot in response to how good their day was. UGH. 

I'm not exactly the best at small talk, so I just remain quiet and try not to engage conversation to do my own thing. If they wanna talk I'll talk, but I don't wanna talk if I don't know if they want to or not. (Jeez that sounds like a stroke).

I don't know! I'm different with a lot of people. I try to be nice, try to start a conversation if I really want to, but my lil quirks won't really come out unless I'm ranting about something ;-;