I hate how I cannot quit social media

I hate how I cannot quit social media. And, I know how ironic this is, considering I am posting this on a form of social media. But, I feel there's something different about SpaceHey, but it is ultimately some form  social media. Anyways. I have tried countless of times to quit social media, yet I always end up back using social media. I delete my accounts, download blocking apps, etc. Hell, I bought a flip phone and yet I still always come back to it. And what sucks even more is the fact that I feel this weird kind of loneliness whenever I am not on social media. And then I feel like I'm not informed or some shit like that, but then being informed sucks (look at the state of the world right now and you'd understand why). I feel this weird feeling whenever I'm not on it, and it sucks. I have way more time on my hands, and really nothing to fill that time. I also lose a form of escape, which sucks. I tried to quit social media this one time, and I was overthinking and stressing the entire time, for no apparent reason. I would have panic attacks, and I grew accustomed to going on social media to calm myself down in a way. But it's so ironic that I hate social media and it makes me sad, but it sucks when I'm not on it. Like, for example, I love TikTok because I actually tend to get really cool content on there. But every once in a while I'll get a FYP full of politics and ai slop and bad news that just bums me out. I also use Reddit, and I love the fact that I can be in these communities with all my different interests, but I've grown addicted to going to the popular tab and doom scrolling for hours. And its just filled with bad news telling you what is wrong about the world today, and it just saddens me. But my brain gets a dopamine hit off of that for some reason, and I continue to use it.  I also struggle to quit reddit, because I miss those communities that I'm in. I still use twitter and I don't know why. That shit is genuinely a cesspool of fuck ass politics and red pill content pushers and rage-baiters. But I like to use it because it's how I receive news about games I play. And for some fuck ass reason I can't view posts through the web because I have to "download" the app so then I miss out on that. So then I struggle to quit that since I "fear" not knowing things. What sucks too, is one time when I was trying to quit TikTok, I just got addicted to YouTube shorts, and now I can't use YouTube normally without ending up scrolling on YouTube shorts. You can theoretically turn it off by turning off your history, but then you don't get recommendations for YouTube videos, which I use a lot whenever I want to watch some YouTube. Then, whenever I do really try to quit a social media, I just fine some way to get a dopamine hit. I got addicted to Pinterest when I was trying to quit one time. 

And what sucks so much about all of this is the fact that everything is on social media, and how I have become practically reliant on social media. So, not only does being on social media suck, but trying to quit sucks just as much because your left out of everything. What's really sad is, one time when I was trying to quit, I think I was trying to find music to put in my playlist, but I couldn't really find anything because I didn't have social media algorithms to show me music. I've noticed that I grown reliant on these fuck ass algorithms, which is really really sad.  And, even If I tried to find ways to fix all the problems there is when quitting social media, like I said, everything is on social media. Want to learn about news about your favorite game? It's on social media. Want to get inspiration for something? It's on social media. Want to find new artists? It's on social media. And, even when I try to find alternatives, I don't have algorithms to assist me in finding them, and usually, there is no alternatives. Why? BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS ON SOCIAL MEDIA

I don't know anymore at this point. Sadly I've honestly accepted the fact that I'm addicted to social media, and I really shouldn't be accepting that. My attention span sucks. I have the memory of a fucking goldfish. And it just sucks. And I don't know what to do. 

I feel like a crackhead dawg...