SOOOOO a lot has happened lol

I'm 18 now and I've been 18 for quite a while now. I've experienced a lot of ups and downs those few months. My cat count is sadly down to 4 now since my oldest kitty passed away in April (⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠).  I've had my final exams in Mai and June and graduated successfully in Julyyyyy ᕙ⁠( ⁠°⁠▽⁠° ⁠)⁠ᕗ. Since then I was jobless which had its ups and downs. I had a few months were I felt like I was not working for my dreams and that made me feel really depressed, honestly I felt worthless and didn't have any purpose because I was literally stuck at home. ((no money = no going out with friends)) (⁠٥⁠↼⁠_⁠↼⁠). Ehmm I just noticed I skipped a really important part sorry (⁠ꏿ⁠﹏⁠ꏿ⁠;⁠). In April I joined a band we are attempting to be a German Vkei band their have always been Vkei bands in Germany but they never really achieved recognition and since I'm a Bassist and I honestly missed performing live at that time I thought I should give it my best and honestly I made two really good friends with that band with ((Itami no Kanata)) the members have really unique and different personalities but I see great potential in that for a vkei band obviously their are always small things that may not work as intended but we've already a other vkei band that supports us and I gained 150 new follower on insta (⁠｡⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠｡⁠). I also Ehm broke up with my gf... And we got in a lot of fights to the point were my friends made me cut ties with her. That happened just a few days and is still really hard for me. I feel like I depend on her, I loved spending time with her and after all I loved her. But I luckily Lord luckily moved on with my feelings a few months ago, even though it took MONTHS and was really really hard for me to accept that she's not my lover anymore. But we both were not meant to be. We just hurt each other and I really have never fought so much with anyone in my life. We both were at faulty I had my flaws and she had hers and I'm still trying to change mine honestly!!! I had a lot of life lessons about friendship and such things thanks to her and learned that I'm very easily manipulatable.... (⁠｡⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠). But basically tomorrow I'll have to Work for the first time ever... HELP, I'm really anxious about it  I don't know what to expect and their is nothing that can prepare me and I HATE THAT. I'm scared of screwing up even though it would be normal and no issue but yeah.... Finally I found a job have a purpose and I'm one step closer to achieving my dream job and I'll be rich (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) because they pay okay lol. Let's see how Tomorrow will goooo byeeeee until next time!!!!