Emptiness

I've been feeling bad lately,under the weather, lost. I have maladaptive day dreaming disorder and it's been getting bad lately.Its been hard to distinguish between dream and reality.it's been hard to talk to people . Frankly it's been hard to live .now that I think about it humans really can't live without company they would die frm isolation I fear I would too it's swallowing me whole.I'm rotting ,I don't have the energy to do anything,( write poems,read,talk ,watch anything at all) and I wish I had someone to help me frm this .

My hobby right now is screaming in to the water ( u should try it it feels good) humans ,most of them are shits aren't they .I can understand another person's thought easily frm slightest expression.they are complicated I don't wanna associate myself in venting or gossips or anything .I wanna talk about deep things but no one is that deep in this area I fear .

I sometimes crave affection to the point I stroke my own hand and eyebrows and hug myself.its hell really .wish I could recover.

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aisha !!

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i struggled with maladaptive daydreaming too so i totally get u, it took me awhile to get out of that shithole but trust me, time will heal you and everything eventually gets better. keep on fighting everyday <3

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Thanks really but how can I get out of this thing it's literal drugs brain drugs and it's ruining me

by The spawn of satan; 1759594850; Report

Thanks a lot.but how do u actually get out of this loophole it's ruining me hell it is

by The spawn of satan; 1759594924; Report

i would say you should understand what triggers it. for me it was my bed. whenever i sit on my bed, i would start daydreaming for hours. so u should avoid whatever is trigering your thoughts. you can also distract yourself with high concentration tasks that you can do everyday, it doesnt have to be a lot but make the effort to increase your effort everyday. i hope what im saying is helpful, im not the best at advice

by aisha !!; 1759595655; Report

I'm grateful to u dear angel

by The spawn of satan; 1759595716; Report

no problem. u could always talk to me if u want :D

by aisha !!; 1759595817; Report

•^•!!!!

by The spawn of satan; 1759596297; Report