my social circle is DEAD in school


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how did i get 2 this...

i moved schools around a year ago, (i'm in Year 10 though i'm one of the oldest 😞) and since then i've sort of fell into this group of girls and they've always been SUPER nice 2 me and generally fun people 2 be around, shown below is (left 2 right) Sara, Melanie, me, and Kyla 

i didn't use their actual names ofc!! 


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Melanie had joined right b4 the summer holidays, and @ 1st she seemed super nice and i hung out w her!! shes 1 of the only ppl who take the same train line as me and shes in my form class so obv we became friends, so i sort of included her whenever i was hanging out with Sara and Kyla. 4 a while we had this little group going until mayb around 2 weeks b4 skl broke up when Melanie started not speaking 2 me hwnever i spoke to her

BUT she resolved this in the first week back she asked if we can have peace again but i didnt know what i did??? turns out she accused me of racism and i had no idea 4 like 2 months??? as u can probs tell im not 2 good with reading ppl :/

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so fast forward 2 about a week and a half ago, suddenly all three of them full on IGNORE me whenever i speak to them?? when i approach them they move away, they dont even make eye contact with me AND I HAD NO IDEA WHY :(

i was essentially being shunned by my friends 4 seemingly no reason, and it took me having to ask one of their only close friends who like me 2 tell me whats been going on with them, apparently they feel uncomfortable around me because of a number of things, most of which i do subconsciously and have never even given any thought 2 or considered that other people might dislike, so i feel extremely self conscious more than b4

a lot of the things were things they do themselves to some degree as well

now im really confused; who's in the wrong? me for allegedly being a shitty person or them for not telling me what their problem is? 


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SO YEH I HAVE NO FRIENDS AT SKL IM A LOSER AGAIN 

im on a social sabbatical by hiding in the music practice rooms every break and lunchtime its rather lovely really i h8 my life

anyways thanks 4 reading my shitty teenage complaints!!!!


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☆ Hollow Kitty ☆

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In year 10, people definitely have the ability to communicate any issues they have with someone. Them not wanting to signals that they aren't wanting a resolution. If they had a problem with you, they should have said something so you could address it or explain it. Not doing so means they don't see you as a friend worthy to keep. They're in their own clique now.
You aren't a loser. You discovered fakeness. Everyone should strive to be a better version of themselves, but unless told something is wrong, how would you know to fix it?
You'll find better friends. Each year will be different. Different people will phase out. But you will be okay. You'll find the right people.


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DUDE?? Istg school friends are always like this to some degree, always had trouble with em being avoidant of people rather then resolving issues…

It’s their problem, for not approaching you and telling you the problem, at least now you know what type of people they are but yeah i feel you, being slammed out of a friend group. LIKE YK IT JUST SHOWS WHAT TYPE OF PEOPLE THEY ARE BUT just the memories attached hurts? Idk if what im saying makes sense tho,, but def their fault for not saying anything to u


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yeah it does, but its so weird i think i jus need 2 process the fact that theyre assholes cuz like WOAH. WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT.

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