my dad is moving away and idk how to feel (10/03/25)

my dad is moving away to another city. well if you don't know me, my bfs is my dad. he's the coolest guy you could ever meet. w his tats and his earrings and his guitar. but he's moving away to another city tmr and idk how to feel. my parents are divorced and im closer to my dad. my mom is a narcissist and we don't really get along that well. she lowkey sees herself in me and despises me for it. 

recently we had a huge fight and I had to stay at my dad's this week bc of it. and now he's moving away and I feel like poop. ever since I woke up this morning I've been helping him pack up his stuff and secretly crying while doing so. like im happy for him that he'll be moving in with his parents and he'll open up his own cafe and stuff but im so sad he's leaving. I know I'll still be able to see him time to time and all but it simply won't be the same. Idk what I'll do without him bc he's my safe space and now I won't have that. 

I know I can still text him and call him but that's js not the same yk?? all I will have left of him now will be his cat.

bro I know im talking like he just died or sat but idk I feel so down. I'll move in w him next year but I don't wanna wait that long yk?? it's been my biggest dream for years to move in w my dad. and Im tired of waiting. 

I wish he could take me w him rn and I could js leave tmr w him. but I can't and it sucks. ughhhhh :/

now I gotta deal with my mentally ill mom on my own and I hate that. anyways

at least I have Arya<333 I love her guys u should add her too from my friend list, she's literally the coolest person ever :p

anyway, that's it for now. ill prob add another entry later 2nite but yeah. im done for now. anyways baiiiiiiiii