HEALING

            By dictionary definition, it can be a noun: the process of making or becoming sound or healthy again. An adjective: tending to heal; therapeutic. What does it truly mean to define healing? Healing, is not just a process of becoming, or to tend, it can be described by three words given to its alignment of meaning.

          “Journey”. It is a journey of loss and found. A breaking of the old and the blooming of anew, it is a long path where one will travel across the fog that blinded your vision. Feet crackles and prickle lie bare on your sole achingly bleeding until it is covered in red and blue. Walking to what seems to be an endless cycle of gnawing and gnashing of your hands, relentlessly taking a step over the steep hill. Regardless of your vision being but naught of swirls, blurs and visions of passerby unbeknownst of their presence. “Grief”. Grieving over the truth of what will happen, what could happen and what may have happened. It is the fawn that lay beside its mother, confused as to why mother has been resting for weeks without waking. Yearning for warmth that burns deep into the bones of your heart, the fickle and tackle of time yet returning to the fungus burgeoning across the mother’s features, longing for those eyes to open once more. “Resignation”. A reluctant acceptance, a point of no return. The loss of desire to revert to your meal when you have eaten everything until they are no left but bones and ligaments. Nothing left to return to; the place you may know and loved will never be the same anymore. From the colors of red and blue, you’re forever purple. You can’t separate yourself from what once of separate primary, secondary and vividly staring beyond the horizon. Soles beneath the pavement of your corpse, you have been reborn with memories of the past. Resignation to withdraw from the stench of maggots and rot, bury it deep than to drag it endlessly before it attracts swarms that devours and famine your future.

        Healing is a set of stage, a set of level of becoming and unbecoming; tending and breaking. It is nonlinear spectrum of ups and downs. And what is crucial for healing is to move forward. Seeking resignation of removing the unbefitting to achieve what behooves tomorrow.

    XOXO

       - Kixx