do I have to be pretty to be loved ??

okay so this isn't my usual blog thingys but I really want to get this feeling out 

I really don't get why people don't like me. I'm nice, I have okay grades, I'm (somewhat) funny, and I'm not that shy! Yea I'm chubby and somewhat chopped but is that all they care abt these days? I really don't wanna sound like a pick me but it's just so hard to love people and for people to love me !! I want genuine love, hell I NEED just below average love. Little updates, little affection, talking constantly, everything. I just want to feel loved. 

I mean this in like a rs way and a friend way. My irl friends treat me like I'm just there to make themselves feel better. 

Nyways thaz all nyrheuvuiefjuibf aisty owt