My problems maintaining friendships D:

HIII!! I had something to tell you all!!! I think this has more to do with the fact that it is difficult for me to make friends or even maintain friendships. Well lately I notice that there are some people/beings who know great people and I find it super cool!! Sometimes I wonder how they do it!! I also just really admire those people/beings who go out and ask people if they can be their friends! It seems super epic to me, for me to do that or to work up the courage scares me because of things like making others uncomfortable, I don't care if they say no to me, I understand that not everyone is going to like us or that we are simply not the type of people they want in their circle of friends! what scares me is the fact of making others uncomfortable with my presence or/and what I say, and it's just SUPER stressful!!! Also, every time I make a new friend, I always end up messing things up, like not communicating how I feel, trying too hard to not upset them to the point of making them angry, ending the friendship with them over stupid things that could have been fixed, or just being afraid of upsetting them by texting them. Sometimes I get so stressed out by my own actions that I just wish I didn't feel so anxious all the time. Many times I feel like I'm a really bad friend because of all of that

Well, I also know that it might not be that hard to make friends here! (For some,) what I feel is that people can find it VERY difficult to deal with me! I feel like I'm super annoying!! D:

I find the people I've added here super cool! I don't talk to them much, but I do interact with them sometimes! I feel like they're super cool and brilliant! I admire them so much!