Getting a new sketchbook

I hate having to buy new sketchbooks i feel like i'm leaving months of work behind, abandoning my drawings forever and i attach to them way too much does anyone feel that way too or do i have issues lmao AND picking a new one is also too hard like wdym i need to find a sketchbook which i like both cover,  paper material, size and such. Atp just give me a sketchbook that i CANNOT finish so i won't have to grieve.