I'm so tired of artschool T__T

Hey, for the starters: This is a RANT about my experience as an art school student along with some personal opinions :b I'M NOT THAT BIG OF A HATER I SWEAR (°>~<)  .If my English is bad excuse me 4 that, IT'S NOT MY NATIVE  LANGUAGE AND I KIND OF SUCKK

So I've started highschool abt 2 years ago (at 15yo in my country) and along with that i started my art school journey. I'm in my 3rd year now and for the past two years I've been struggling a lot ToT. The ammount of work is exhausting, at first i thought it was the change from elementary to high school but THIS is crazy, both artistic work AND regular work speaking. We can't go a single week without any project to finish or start, this week i had to finish 4 projects for one class, 4 for another one, scetch projects and some recordings for the upcoming film i'll have to make. It's thursday.  And you as a reader may think "Oh yeah It's not that bad, you came to this school for the art, right?" and you would be correct, but apart from the art work we still have regular classes. For example: this week I had a Polish exam, an essay to write, biology test, luckily we had math cancelled cause I would also have a math test. 

The art work we do in school is very mutch difrent from what an individual artist would ever want to do. First two grades are always to sink in the strict basics, just going for absolute realism, playing with color and all that jazz. Honestly i hated those two grades, the ammount of algorithm we had to work with to pass was so demotivating, there was barely any invention that we could put into our art and it all felt like 01001 work T_T. In the end, I ended up with zero motivation, it's very easy to loose any passion to art when it becomes a duty, everything you create being put to a hard assessment. There's been so many moments i was doubting if I even want to be here, if it would be better for me to just dropp it and again develop the courage to create ANYTHING.. :°[[

Afterall, it's just school. Right now i think i'm gaining back my motivation. This year teacher seem less strict and we get more elastic projects that we can really put ourselves to and i find myself really liking the idea. I'm trying to just get it together after surviving those 2 years, regular classes are giving me a headache and i just needed to babble about it somewhere<33

Anyway

BLAH- Out 💪🔥😔✌️