Why I been quiet

Everyone..  I have been quiet, and sad.. and pissed off.. and I apologise to you all...  I might need to explain myself to you all.. and especially my friends on SH.. new and old. ALSO visitors to my page / blog.

1.  I had a job interview in August for a dream job, but 2 weeks ago, I was told i did not get it and do a course (which was meant to be part of the job and could had been done at work) then reapply...  so i was angry as hell!  They actually broke employment laws!  So I gave up looking for work, and quit ALL study!
2. Support workers are really stupid..  especially when i was in a middle of depression!  So I just went offline for a bit.
3. I left YouTube..  Too much AI and Copyright BS!  Not for me.. but other music history shows.  So out of anger.. I left.. and I am happy..  BUT I have new software for my music, so it will be up in 2 weeks. and
4.  WOMEN trouble!  I leave it at that!