Ranting about life!

Lately I've been stuck in a loop. Doing the same things day by day in hopes that maybe the next day I'll get my life back together. That I'd do the workout I wanted to do, that I would start trying to find a job, that I could work on my confidence and accept myself. Life is a challenge, and of course it will never be easy. but that doesn't mean I wanna give up! I want to slowly get my life back together, even if it takes a long time, or if I fail time and time again. So here I will be blogging little things about this journey, I want to share it! Maybe I'll share little things like things I've done, any progress, the bad days, the good days, things I wanna do, ect ect

So on this fateful night where I've decided to type all this up, I was playing some Dandy's world as an unemployed adult does... (It's so weird, I'm obviously 18, yet I don't feel like I should be- anywayss) I watched this truly eye opening video about perspectives, and then right after I watched a video where someone was explaining how to restart. Especially when you're in the dumps and feel terrible (which I've felt a LOT) anyhow, watching these videos has helped me feel more positive about myself and I wanna start trying to do some things that I want to do. Pretty much I wanna do my own reset yk!

I feel like I have to remember I can't do everything, ESPECIALLY NOT IN ONE NIGHT lolol, the amount of times I tried to "get my life together" in the middle of the night is crazy. Ironically I'm technically doing it rn... I'm typing this motivational text at 2am and who knows if I'll live up to it (I will try my best to!) anywayss, hmmm? I think I wanna start with cleaning my room. Having a tidy space that you spend a lot of time in can really clear your mind and make you feel a whole lot better! I would know because I had a sleepover and my friends room was super clean! which made me feel really good, it made me feel clean mentally in a way. So tomorrow I'm going to start with something small like, My dishes I'm keeping in my room and perhaps folding my clothes and putting them into my dresser could be a good start! Sometime soon I also wanna work on my resume, my mom is helping me with it but she's sick rn so she can't at the moment.

I think that was a good amount of blogging! I hope you enjoyed reading this and it would mean a lot if you stuck around to see my journey as I go, but if not then thank you for reading this far! I'm going to go to bed and get some good sleep in! Goodnight peeps! <3