party outfit I wore recently!!

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I've been trying to experiment more with fashion now that I'm in college and away from my parents who don't want me doing anything gender affirming.

It felt really nice wearing the fit but also I feel super unsure of it. One one side I don't want to be or be perceived as masculine (im a tgirl). But on another side I feel this desire to wear fem clothing but a lot of fem clothing feels fake and like plastic to me, which gives me what might be another kind of dysphoria? I'm not quite sure.

The headdress is a lolita headdress that I got off of my favorite jfashion creator!!

The white tanktop/croptop I got from the crazy Forever21 sale they had bc they were going bankrupt! So I got it really cheap! Like $5 USD!

I got the cute translucent white top with stars from value vintage for $5 CAN.

The purse and long skirt are both from my friend!

My point is!

I'm finally at the level of independence from my parents where I'm finally getting to try the stuff I've wanted to especially jfashion but I'm never sure if it's my thing or if I just think it looks cool. And it's strange bc I sometimes feel more lost than ever even though I've been doomscrolling fashion content like crazy for like a year. I def felt more lost than ever when I wore this.

And it feels like I'm not getting any closer to what I genuinely want to wear?? I genuinely don't know or have much of an idea as to what that is- and I have gone shopping a decent bunch!

I really dont know what to do LOL cause I don't want to blow a crazy amount of money trying stuff out. Shopping works but I am so impatient and it is taking FOREVERRR

So, please give me advice :D

Also!

I am super into fashion and makeup and I really want friends that are into that esp jfashion and other alt styles! I also love clown makeup and will be trying it for real fully soon.

Please add me and feel free to reach out to me!! I love to fangirl over people's outfits and insta posts with other ppl