Did you know that your middle ear becomes affected when you've experienced trauma + narcissistic abuse?

I recently found that image on Facebook groups. And it hit me big time. It reminded me of the reality that I am living with. 

My ears had been extremely really very bad & now, I understand why. It started ages ago, way back when I was much younger. Such ordeal, perhaps, happened from my failed pasts (difficult childhood due to adults being dismissive and very depressing teenage life due to love's betrayal). At times, I hear the throbs, perhaps, it's just the muscles of my ears. Or I don't hear any sound at all. Or it always have a problem in the middle area when I got it professionally checked. I was told it is not usual from just a simple usage of headset & such. I often had to tell people that it's just a normal earache but it isn't. There are days, that such "hurtful degrading words" from those grim past just attacks you dry, whenever it wants, especially in modes of silence. Those words, revolve around your mind constantly. 

Over time, you learn to deal with that occurence of trauma, & pain in your heart, & in your head, for a lifetime. & you also try to become numb. And to those that  unapologetically caused that to you, learning to forgive them is another thing. Forgiveness is not easy to do when you have become so damaged. But you have to try hard to attain it for your well-being. Because there's no running away from it. Albeit traumatic, the key is to stay strong, remain calm, & focused on yourself, & your selected close-knit people. May we all heal in time. 

Moral lesson of the story: never say hurtful words to anyone that  you love and those matter to you. Even if you don't mean it, it will cause a constant reminder of the pain. And it takes a lifetime to recover from it. The aftermath is traumatic, and can cause permanent damage, unforgivable circumstances, and health issues. Be wise with your words. 

Xoxo, 

Devruhadabra 

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