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learned helplessness, the act of trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and trying differently this time because what if something changed and trying, just one more time, just one more, maybe if I do it more different than the last and then failing, and failing and failing and oh wait here's some hope, then failing again. and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and trying to stop failing,to stop being so miserable but nothing is changing, the result is the same, so fail.

keep failing

then stop

then try again

then fail again

then.