How does one have no interests?

I feel like a blank slate of a person. I don't like any movies or music, I don't like animals or having pets, I don't have a favorite color (or else "transparent"), I don't feel I have any passions or hobbies, even with most of the things I "like" I feel slightly less than indifferent with them and they aren't topics I enjoy talking about

Now for all that I said, I lied-ish. I do have interests but, I don't think they're accepted by society yet. Now now! I'm not interested in anything illegal or lawfully questionable! It's just, weird, and a bunch of people would laugh at me if I dare mention it

When you don't have "acceptable" interests it feels isolating. At least I used to remember having acceptable interests, and I'd curate my image to be something like that; but now, I pretty much have nothing to talk about myself because all I like aside from the really generic stuff is my "unsafe, scary" interests that I dare not talk about

I'm not sure how I got to this state, I mean, I do know, but the transition just felt so sudden. I remember having my interests, then I begun to lose them until I was left with nothing, then I formed new ones, said new ones are arguably worse than my old interests, but they were most likely there to fill in the blanks

Of course humans are complex beings and it'd be abnormal for one to have no interests, similar to not being social at all. You're bound to bond with someone you see around sometimes; you're bound to develop a preference for something

But there's a certain line that draws when an interest is acceptable and when an interest is "lmao you enjoy that garbage?" even more niche interests common with neurodiverse people can be considered acceptable because there's the chance of finding your people. The stuff I do like makes me very confident that it has no audience lmao

Interests are kind of the building block in developing most relationships and friendships, which makes them really important. So in a situation like mines I've kinda just locked myself out, and I'm just going to have to get lucky, up all night if you will, for any chance at this.

At the same time though I almost kind of give up at this social thing and might just become a hermit in the future or something.

I'm kind of rambling at this point, so I'm just going to end it here.