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｡ﾟﾟ･ ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ written 21st December 2021
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I feel like im more grounded. I'm feeling more comfortable in my skin to dream again. This is really amazing now because for the longest time I had this fear to dream, because i had a fear to self destruct that dream through acting on it when I'm in a high. This past while I've been learning to ground myself more in my daily life and be present in what i do. For the longest time I struggled with balancing myself out, I didn't understand how to put the right amount of effort into everything I did.. I tried blindly going all out with no solid foundation, and then I tried putting absolutely no effort in anything and trying to let myself be as comfortable as possible, which to be honest was extremely uncomfortable actually.
A mindset that really helped me conceptualize a form of balance that has been working well for me is through something I learnt in sport (I might have mentioned this in one of my earlier blogs):
Basically when you improve your stamina, when you walk or jog for example, you have to go a bit out of your comfort zone to get results out of your movement, but not too much, just enough that you are present with any pain you feel and you don't have to escape from it through your mind or other distractions, and it's best to keep up a speed that you can imagine yourself being able to manage around the same amount throughout the entire route.
I hope this makes sense, but basically i have to walk back home a lot of the time, and I've noticed as I started walking at a speed that meets the requirements I mentioned above that walking home became ALOT more bearable compared to when I walked home in a comfortable pace.. it's weird isn't it? I come back home now feeling good in my skin, whereas before it felt like walking up the hill home felt like the most dreadful thing to do ever. Now I actually look forward to walking home at this perfect pace I've developed. I love how I'm tapped into the way I breathe and the muscle tensions in my body while i walk... it's actually become quite a spiritual experience for me.
So basically what I'm trying to say with this is, if I apply the same thing with whatever projects I have and when I try to tackle / handle new ideas that I have, I intuitively feel like, when I apply this concept, I am present in what I do, and the process of creating becomes another way of me tapping into my spirituality and connecting with myself.
Recently Ideas have been greeting me in my mind, and now I'm really looking forward to applying this concept to these beautiful ideas or expressions that want me to use them as an outlet and be expressed. Of course I'm not saying I'm always fully grounded and present with my breathe, but I find myself having an easier time to remember to balance myself out through being present with myself. It's a work in progress :3
One more thing i learnt or conceptualized yesterday is this concept that we are not a creator of ideas and concepts, but instead there are ideas, states of minds and concepts that feel drawn to us based on our state of being, and that certain ideas want to be expressed or put out in a way. They get drawn to people or beings that align with the thought in hopes that then the person receiving an idea can then execute it or embody that state of mind / idea / concept. I find it really interesting to see thoughts as wandering, existing forms of energy because that comes to show that no idea is truly original, but instead an original or new idea would just be a cluster of different personal ideas that come together as a new, beautiful form. I find it really interesting seeing thoughts as this energy that knows it's self worth and that kind of gets pulled to a desired host. I just imagine how it just sits in the mind of an individual, and if that thought gets neglected or devalued, it will simply find a host that is just as confident in this concept as it existing is (I don't believe it's like a conscious energy though or that it has it's own form of awareness because i feel like im talking like i think that's the case) .
But ever since I see thoughts as this valuable, individual cluster of existence that wasn't purely created by me, I've come to really appreciate the ideas that pass through my mind, and I feel more inclined to treat nice ideas with love, respect, patience and acknowledgement.
For reference, I watched this video, I highly recommend it for everyone who has dreams and ideas (which I feel like everyone has deep down even if it's a simple one). I hope the ones who made it this far, I hope you enjoyed reading a piece of my mind. I certainly enjoyed putting my energy into writing this. Ngl tho it's always scary putting something that's equivalent to my literal diary, but I'd love to hear your relationship with thoughts and the way you've seen your ideas etc. I'm really scared, but I am optimistic in my vision and my thoughts, and that even if I'm saying too much, that I'll definantly get something out of posting this no matter what. It's all valuable.
Logging out,
Lotus
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