Sighhh

College has been so unmotivated for me. Which sucks. I guess the reason why is because I choose a major that was more realistic towards me to be stable in life but I'm not going to be happy. I've always wanted to do something related to art. I loveee art. Realistically I won't earn too much if I choose an art major. The future of art is basically ruined because of AI use. People making their own logos as ai or just using ai instead of commissioning artists. Animation will be taken over by AI how fast it is improving. I hate that. I've also wanted to become a fashion designer or work at a salon. I want to dye people's hair fun colors and fun haircuts and just be creative with it. I don't know if my parents will be happy if I quit school and just study cosmetology. I want to do something that makes me happy. Cleaning people's mouths won't make me happy at all. Not sure what to do. 

It makes me feel ungrateful in certain ways though. Many women and Latinos like me don't always have the same privilege i do to get this type of education. It's a guilt I have since I come from parents that also didn't have that same privilege I do which is why I'm not really chasing my dream. Makes me feel incredibly depressed. 

I'm not asking for any sort of advice I just wanted to come on here and rant on this topic that has been lingering in my mind.