sigh

“omg i wish i was hyper sexual lol!!”

till u start having sexual fantasies about your family and friends, till u feel so ashamed and uncomfortable with yourself u literally had towels over your mirrors, till you’d cry yourself to sleep feeling so disgusting , till your hiding behind a sexuality because you genuinely don’t know what you are, till your too ashamed to come out to your friends because you think it’s totally valid for them to laugh at u and be weirded out by you, till u start feeling nauseous all the time, till the only route out of things is to touch yourself, till you sexualize yourself just to go on tiktok and see a post full of comments making fun of hyper sexuality, till your being called a gooner when you genuinely can’t control it anymore and your so disgusted with yourself and you wish u could just be normal like everyone else because you feel so fucking weird and unwanted, yes kiddo, keep wishing for something you only know the shallow ends of, i used to deal with hyper sexuality trust me it’s not something you’d wish upon you worst enemy.

hyper sexuality is always mis interpreted as just being a ‘freaky gooner!!’ but it’s most likely a trauma response from being groomed, you just normalize it because your confused why your feeling this way but you also fall into the feeling, hyper sexuality isn’t just being freaky and touching yourself, it’s a lot worse than that, i nearly committed when i was struggling, please don’t make fun of people because you never know what their going through, i got better because i wasn’t getting harassed on tiktok and being made fun of, but now unfortunately people are getting harassed and made fun of people who don’t just not understand, they don’t want to. what they wanna do is make fun of people for their own personal gain, please know someone’s life may have been lost just for “aura”’. this is mostly all just what i felt when i was hyper sexual but i found a better way to cope and i’ve dealt with it, not everyone feels everything i did. have a good day and please be nice.